silly questions answered

Are you gonna stay with the one who loves you or are you goin' back to the one you love?

If someone asked me this question a year ago, I would have answered in my own pragmatic fashion that certainly it would be the former. Why risk heartache and rejection when you can have the sure thing right then and there. Surely, you can find a way to love back the person right and be happy, right?

Well, let's just say that now I harbor quite a different perspective. It certainly is not that easy and it is no way to live a life being with someone you don't love at all. I don't care to really expound on this one, let's just say I would rather be swept off my feet and fall madly in love than be with someone who might love me, but the feeling is not just reciprocated. ;)

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Thanks to Paui, I have now discovered a new fantasy author : Margaret Weiss and Tracy Hickman of the Dragonlance series. I bought the Chronicles trilogy. They write in a way that makes it easy to read (dili makalabad ulo), the story is riveting, the characters fantastic. I finished all three books in around 4 days. I can't wait to buy the other Dragonlance books. Maybe the Legends trilogy, as is recommended by the grandmaster. :P

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Right now, I am petrified at the thought of conducting a training for some users two weeks from now. My gawd, I hope my English doesn't desert me when I need it the most. And my brain too for that matter. It also does not help that one of the trusty Basis guys just left to work in the US. I feel so abandoned. Hopefully, I won't screw up that much. hehe.

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saying goodbye again

I feel so sad today.

In three days, I will be leaving my beloved Cebu and going off to Bangkok again to work. Three weeks of vacation has gone by so fast. Christmas, New Year, bday celebrations have come and gone and now I have to leave it behind to work again and stay in front of my PC again (and face my AUA tool again...oh man...). But then, panginabuhi naman ni. wala nay mingaw mingaw.

So on Sunday, I will go back to Bangkok with a light pocket (na sad ako lalo), a lighter luggage (wala na laman luggage ko pagbalik ko) but with a heart filled with memories of this Christmas break.

Mental (ngayon written na) checklist (have i done stuff I needed to do already):
- ate at KFC (check!)
- ate at Jollibee (dami na. check!)
- shopped for family (check!)
- defended my ownership of my camera and phone (check! they are coming back with me to BKK)
- OEC (done!)
- quarrelled Goldilocks personnel for selling expired cake to us on Dec 31 (done!)
- done sis's homework (check na din. and currently doing it now)
- hung out with cebu friends (done). manila friends, wala pa. malayo na kasi.
- pedicure and manicure (check!)
- dumped a guy (check!)
- karaoke (done!)
- learned driving (check!)
- spent 3 days in hospital watching over BOTH parents (check!)
- went to ayala and SM malls almost every day (done!)
- learned to cook (hmm...next time nalng)

I think the only thing I didn't do was watch television (except for the Big Brother DVDs). But then, I watch TV in Bangkok every time I am free or when I didn't want to go out.

I am actually petrified just thinking about facing Panginoon sa Bintana. :( Oh well.

Got to get back to my sis's homework now. :P

Letting go of 2005

It wouldn't be fair for the year 2005 to let it slide by without even a scant recognition of the changes, blessings, memorable events, and unforgettable people (both in a good and bad way) the year has given me.

- career-wise, it has been good so far. I got a good evaluation report from my superior and got promoted this year. I got SAP accreditation too which was something I was gunning for when I was in company A
- financially, I am better off this year compared to the previous years. I feel so happy when I am able to give more to my parents than I was able to before. And I am now debt free as I have fully paid the loan I got from my tita for my initial spending when I arrived in Bangkok last year! yehey!
- established deeper friendship ties with Reysiel, Ria, Kuya Mervs, Len and the other Filipinos here in Siemens
- met and worked closely with people from different cultures which made my work experience so much more interesting and challenging.
- bought my first digi cam and first colored phone! (yippee). I was sad to see my trusty 8210 go though. :( I bought my family a computer and my dad a cellphone too!
- was able to travel to Singapore 3 times this year and met up with some batchmates and other ex accenture peeps there too
- love life front...hmmm....interesting developments going on. hahaha. but this is a TBA item. Not that I feel I need one right now as I am satisfied with how my life is going on
- went to the gym for the first time this year!
- learned how to drive!
- the Shanghai boy moments (brief but memorable)

I can't remember everything that has happened in 2005. But I am thankful for this past year and feel really blessed and loved by God. He really is watching out for me and my family. I am excited to see what is in store for me in 2006. :)

I know it seems passe and I never even do half these things anyway, but here are my New year's resolutions. Oops, correction. I prefer to call them my FAITH GOALS for 2006:

1. Be assigned for work in another country (sana sana sana)
2. Travel to another country (other than Singapore, Thailand and the Philippines) like Malaysia and Hongkong
3. More faithful in attending church services and in tithing
4. Get promoted this year (hehehe)
5. Save enough to buy a house of my own in Cebu this year (major project ko ito)
6. Learn how to cook!!! (very important. I am so inutil in the kitchen)
7. Buy more clothes, shoes and bags for myself (don't know why but I shop more stuff for my family than for me)

So Lord, I lift these all up to you and as usual, I ask for Your Grace for these faith goals to come to fruition. :)

And to everyone, I know 2006 will be a blast so let us all keep our spirits up and look forward to an exciting year. :) :) :)