confessions of a bride-to-be

Perhaps it's because I'm missing him for his almost two-week absence, or perhaps because I was filing away pictures for our AVPs last weekend that I suddenly got this sudden shot of sentimiento.  So with less than 75 days until we formally say forever to each other, I found myself daydreaming about that night almost a year ago, on top of Singapore when Paui went down on one knee (oo, on bended knee tlaga like in the movies!) and asked me if I would be his wife.

Now as much as I was feeling kilig during that moment when he was doing his whole mushy and sweet speech to me, I cannot lie and say I was totally suprised.  Why? Eto mga total give-aways....

1 - overconfidence. Around two months before the actual proposal, we were watching a love story where the ending has the guy propose to the girl. I looked at him in a joking, offhand manner as I usually do (joking way tlaga pramiz) and elbowed him. Instead of trying to be deadma which is his usual reaction, he pats my hand and confidently replied, "ma surprise ka nlng". 

2 - sudden cravings. December 6-7 was our monthsary weekend. So I was busy making plans where to go (even prebooked Rassa Sentosa for a relaxing weekend). But near the end of November, he had me cancel the booking and instead insisted we go out for a nice dinner somewhere shala. I told him we can go instead to Sentosa and have a simple dinner  instead of spending a lot for food. But he was insistent...and he never goes for expensive food unless it is Valentine's day or our birthdays (or he did something wrong. haha).

 3 - wardrobe malfunctions. I was all dressed up and ready to go in a simple, casual chic white outfit. He took one look at me and told me to go change into something more formal. He was already dressed in his James Bond dashing outfit. Hello...sinu pa ba di magdududa di ba that something was up when we NEVER NEVER dress up this much when going out for dinner, even when we went to Vertigo Banyan Tree in Bangkok.

3 - Parental interference. I was talking to my dad on the phone about Hazel's Maldives application the day before the proposal, and had just informed him that her job would start on December 29. Suddenly, he became agitated when he talked to me and he was all worried about what if an "important event would come up" and Haze wouldn't be present. I asked him which event he was referring to. Then he became vague and said in case I got married in 2009 or Hazel or Bea would get married. And Bea is still in college ha. hehehe. Kasama sa palusot nya.

4 - Text Disturbances. During dinner at Indochine, my sis Hazel kept texting me if what happened during dinner...if Paui did or gave anything special. By this time, I was already on kilig alert mode.  Our poor food..I wasn't able to give it much attention dahil my stomach was full of butterflies because I was feeling so kilig and excited already (assuming kaayu ko noh).

5 - Champagne Flight. By the time we reached the Singapore Flyer (Paui kept mum the whole time about where our next destination after dinner was) , and I found out that we were booked on a champagne flight (meaning just the two of us in the capsule) I already had an assuming, gut feeling that this was it...the biggest step we would take in our life together was just a few minutes away. haha. I even went to the restroom to freshen up before we set foot in the capsule.

And when our capsule was at its peak, Paui suddenly motioned me to come to one side to appreciate the view. I was all smiles (minsan mahirap ipigil ang kilig eh). He took both my hands, looked me straight in the eye and proceeded to pour out the words that until now are saved in his cellphone. (I had to re-read his ready made speech again because to be honest during that time I was such in the moment that I can only look at him, and smile like the happiest idiot in the world).

I wasn't teary eyed (which would come as a shock knowing how iyakin I am). And I was painfully conscious of saying the all too cliche "Yes I do" words to him ( I should have thought of something more unique). But really during that time, the only thought in my head was that I was sure (more than sure) that he was my soulmate, my best friend, and the only person who knew me inside and out (ok not know me totally yet but we have a whole lifetime ahead of us, so no rush).  I love him, he makes me happy and as trite as it sounds, I really do want to spend the rest of my days making him as happy and complete as he makes me.

And during the times in wedding preps when life throws a curveball into our carefully laid plans, it's important to keep that in mind :P